You're Gonna Miss This Moment

It's time again to join Pam and reflect upon the moments you will miss the most since time seems to be moving at warp speed these days.

I'm certainly going to miss the days of Roo and Rissa playing dress up and Roo 'protecting his sister' from imaginary 'bad guys.' They apparently get in our house from time to time and he has to turn in to a pirate and scare them away with his 'shooter', water gun minus the water, and a plastic clothes hanger. Oh, and I know I will miss the moments of them actually hugging each other, those are rare even now.

I will also miss getting all the kisses I want from my little pirate girl, I know that will not last much longer.

Head over to Pam's site for more Moments you don't want to miss.

Fun Fridays with Josh and Jake

Marla and the boys came over last Friday, little late in posting I know. The kids had a blast as usual and I loved spending time with Marla. It was so nice just to sit and talk to a friend since I have not been able to get out of the house in quite a while.

Marla brought Marissa a bag or two or three of Winnie the Pooh things for her room and she loves them. I think she scored, one big tigger, a big Eeyore, a small Eeyore, a couple of small pooh bears and a ton of other things. Thanks Marla she loves them. And Roo got a Star Wars board game and a star wars t-shirt for his birthday.

Marla also gave me a beautiful scrap photo book she made of our Christmas cookie making extravagaza with the kids last christmas. She is so talented and I'm so lucky to have her as my friend and partner in figuring out how to raise rambuctious 5 year old boys.

I'm hoping they can come again soon, it certainly is the best kind of medicine for me right now.

Jake and Ruben playing a star wars video game in Roo's room.

Josh and Roo

Marla and Baby Rissa as the boys call her.

Jake posing after making it across with a little help from mom.

Josh posing after making it across the monkey bars.

Rissa being Rissa.

You're Gonna Miss This... Moment

It's time again to join Pam and reflect upon the moments you will miss the most since time seems to be moving at warp speed these days.

So here is my moment, hang in there it's a little long but it's precious moment/moments to me.

I was six months pregnant with Roo when we bought his first gift.
I remember vividly the day we bought it at Toys R US. I spent at least 30 minutes digging through the bin to find the perfect stuffed animal. Jose was getting a bit frustrated and said it's just a stuffed animal and he will just be a baby does it really matter all that much? Well, it certainly did, although I guess he was somewhat right but for some reason I needed to pick the perfect one. After lots of searching and digging, I found him, a soft cuddly bear with a blue ribbon around his neck, perfect size, perfect in every way.

The bear was placed in his crib way before he was born and was waiting for him when he arrived home (I have pics of that but they are on a cd somewhere).

He liked the bear as a baby but around the age of one, he became incredibly attached to it. He named the bear Oso(Spanish for bear, very creative I know).

From the age of one on he would not sleep without the bear or leave the house without him. I can't tell you how many search party's we have had to send out to locate that bear so the child could go to sleep.

Five years later and he still can't sleep without him. Oso even has to ride to school with him although he's not allowed to take him in to school but he expects Oso to be in the car waiting right where he left him when he gets picked up from school.

So I have to say, I will miss seeing him dragging that bear around all the time and insisting he be in most of his photos, even the family photos including the family photo for the church directory(that pic is not scanned though). I know there will come a day when he will let go of Oso, or at least I'm hoping he doesn't drag him off to college :) And when that day comes I will miss seeing my little boy with the bear he holds so dear to his little heart.

Wordless Wednesday

What Happens When Rissa Sneaks the Scissors for 2 Seconds

Last Sunday Jose cut Ruben's hair. I usually do it but was in bed so he did. Every time I cut Roo's I go ahead and trim little Miss Priss's hair too, just the bangs the rest has never been cut.
Well, Daddy told her no so the next day I'm in bed but Deana is watching the kids. I hear Rissa talking to Deana and one minute later I hear Deana get up from her chair and say "Oh my God, what have you done." Deana just kept repeating 'Oh my God.'

So I knew it was bad, I dragged myself out of bed (it had been a bad day) and went into the kitchen. I see this pile of hair on the floor. It took my brain a minute to realize what she had actually done. Then I just did not want to look at her. I didn't get a picture of the hair in the floor because Deana quickly swept it up, I guess getting rid of the evidence for Miss Priss. But it was a lot of hair, I just knew she had cut all her hair off.

I finally went and found her and saw that she had scalped the front. I'm just thankful that she didn't cut skin or her eyes as as close as she got.
After the shock wore off, Jose and I went in our room and threw ourselves on the bed and laughed until we cried. I told Jose next time the child asks for a hair cut he needs to give her one.

Oh and the next day Marissa and I were in the bathroom and she was looking in the mirror. I said look what you did to your hair, her response was, "But mom look at my pretty lips." I had to say yes baby you have pretty lips and gorgeous hair. :)

BEFORE

AFTER

Celebrating Mother's Day and a Birthday

We had quite the festivities today. I turned 33 and got to celebrate being a mother to two of the most amazing kids I know.

Here is Nana with the kids after opening her present.

Here they are with MawMaw, after she opened her presents.

Roo and Jose made me my favorite yellow cake with chocolate icing.

And delivered it to me in bed where I rested most of the day.
They did not have candles so they improvised with candy hearts.

Glimpes from Roo's Birthday Party, Without Me :(

Our neighbor made green cupcakes for Roo, his favorite color of course.

This year he dressed up as a Storm Trooper

This is Ruben's teacher, they threw him a party at school.


When I get better, I plan on throwing him the party we originally planned, with the red light saber cake he requested. He would not let anyone else try to make a light saber cake, he said, "only my mom knows how to do that because she did it last year."

I feel tired today and still having a hard time getting around, the walker is my friend for now as is my new phone with internet access Jose got me as an early birthday present after my phone took a spin in the washing machine. Hoping and praying tomorrow will be better.

This Sucks

April 27, 2009
This Sucks

First let me get this out of the way,
Yes I know it could be worse and at least I can walk, even if it is just to the bathroom with a walker and I am thankful for that truly I am.

But it still sucks.

I can't take care of my kids, I have to ask someone to bring me food, water or whatever I need at the time. My independent side is really having a hard time with all of this right now.

And it sucks.

I'm thankful the tremors have stopped and I can actually feed myself with my right hand, but it still sucks.

I can't dress or feed my kids and it sucks.

I try to sit up in the wheel chair and roll around the house but the pain becomes unbearable and it sucks.

I received my first hospital bill for $8,000, just for the two ER visits and one night in the hospital (before I was transferred to Nashville) I don't have insurance and it sucks.

The bill from Saint Thomas will probably be around $60,000 or more and that sucks too.

I still have a peace about all of this, it's just hard to focus on that when there are so many things that suck right now.

But I'm home with my kids.

I'm eating for the first time in a week, real food, so much for all the weight I have lost. Which the doctors seem to think was a side effect from my condition (a condition that no one seems to have an exact name for as of yet).

The weight loss factor is one of the things that doesn't really suck though.

Oh and I have my phone that has Internet access which is awesome when you are in bed, however it takes forever and nothing is spelled right but who cares in the grand scheme of things.

Your comments and emails have meant more than I can ever express. The highlight of my day, other than cuddling with my kids, is checking my blog and email.

Thank you all and maybe just maybe things won't be as sucky tomorrow.

God Bless

My Point of View

Sunday, April 26, 2009
From My Point of View

I will keep this short and sweet, because I have not yet masted the art of typing on my very small new phone.I don't know what your guys know because I haven't been able to read the updates.

So here is my version, as some of you may already know I have been experiencing symptoms of tinging and numbness in my hands and fee for quite a while. This goes as far back as when Marissa was born, two years ago.

I thought it was nothing and it never lasted longed than 3 days. And of course, I do not have insurance so seeing a doctor was pretty much out of the question.

Friday and Sat. I did not feel very week, but I made myself just push through it because really what can you do.

I took Roo to his soccer game last sat morning but upon arriving home I could barley walk and had to resort to using my mom's walked just to get around. I was totally against going to the ER, no insurance and we are just starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and build back our credit and such.

Sunday morning was one of the scariest times in my life. I couldn't feel my legs,they felt heavy and I could feel pressure but could not pick them up off the bed and when I stood I could see that they were on the floor but could not feel the floor beneath me. I finally let Hubby take me to the ER and they did not find anythinhg wrong. I honestly was beginning to think it was all in my head and wondered if maybe I should be committed, no I'm not joking here.

Sunday night, I started having muscle spasms that I could not control. My arms and legs just started moving on there own. I won't lie, I was terrified. I also felt like someone had given me an epidural. My legs were so very heave. So Hubby called the ambulance at 10 Sunday night. They admitted me and I saw a neurologist on Monday. He examined me and said there was something wrong. Without even discussion the results he had me transferred by ambulance at around1 1 pm Monday night. All I knew was that he said there was a spinal compression. So he sent me to a neurosurgeon in Nashville.
They did a gazillion tests, very painful and admitted me to the Nero ICU. All he found on the tests was a degenerative disk, that apparently has been causing a lot of my back pain. But did not account for the numbness and shaking. Oh did I mention by this time my right side would shake uncontrollable. That was so frustrating, I kept telling it to spot but to no avail So they finally brought in a neurologist. He told me what I needed to hear.

He said he could not prove it with a test but there was something really wrong with me. When he walked out the door I burst into tears. That is all I wanted to hear, that there was indeed a problem and it wasn't in my head. I guess felt validated after all these years living in pain someone finally told me it was real and not in my head.

He told me that the tremors on my Right side has mostly do with my car accident many years ago.
because my right side was the part that was busted up so badly in the accident.
So the plan is to treat it with Medicine, which has already started to control the tremors. I just have to build my strength up and get off that darn walker.

I do know that I have to take it easy. I have a lot of pain, and feel dizzy when getting up. But I'm determined. I just have to approach this like I did 17 years ago when I had to learn how to walk again after my car accident.

I have so much more to share, things God showed me and taught me through all of this but I'm tired so I will end here.

You will never ever know what your comments, prayers, and thoughts have meant to my family.
Oh and if there is anyway to put me on a prayer list on your Church, your friends or even you blog if you so desire, please do.

It's really hard on my husband having to do it all and this has taken a lot out of him and also my aunt having to take care of my mom and the kids.

My prayer requests:
*That I will get that medical card and the phone interview will go great on Tuesday. But honestly I've turned that over to God, if I get it great, if not I know God will handle it. He has given me a peace that surpasses all understanding throughout all of this. Don't get me wrong, I have yelled and cried and asked why, Because personally I think I have been through quite enough in my 32 years. But I'm not promised tomorrow or the use of my legs or even to spend another birthday with my children. All I know is He has gathered me in his arms through all of this, held me and given me a peace I can't explain.

*Please pray for my mom and my whole family, I know this is tough on them.

* And lastly, please pray for my 3 month old neice. You can find out more about that here
Well hope this makes sense. It's taken forever to type if on my phone, and if it doesn't go through well I just may have a temper tantrum, but God understands